Over the last few weeks, I’ve been sailing in the doldrums. I always view this state negatively at first, I just don’t seem to recognize the state as I first enter it, even though I’ve been there before. You would think I’d understand by now that entering the doldrums is a positive sign that something is churning deep down inside.
This state then carries with it hand wringing about why I seemed to have lost steam, agonizing over a perceived lack of productivity, wondering if I’ve lost my will, my purpose and my desire. All of it unnecessary angst because after a time adrift I sail out of the doldrums into the bright shining light of a new day.
This happened yesterday, when I woke up with this powerful feeling of well being.
Today I woke up before by the 5 AM alarm feeling refreshed and invigorated. My meditation stunned me. My morning practice of reading produced an abundant flow of ideas, new insights and contentment. (Contentment…not comfort.)
Strangely while all this turmoil took place, where bits of my daily practice seemed to fall to the wayside, other parts of that practice are so deeply ingrained now, that in spite of me, they continued to flourish.
Every Monday I write my Beautiful Summer Morning Newsletter (if you don’t receive it subscribe though this link HERE). I do this without fail. I’ve been doing this for a very long time. Monday is newsletter day. Even as I wandered aimlessly in some areas, I continued to be inspired to write, didn’t suffer a writer’s block or any slackening of enthusiasm. I’m pleased with the results.
My reading and journaling practice continued each morning.
I delighted in facilitating a ten-week prosperity course at a local spiritual center fulfilling a dream of conducting live workshops and enjoying the thrill of seeing people grow and expand their consciousness.
With a friend I’d conducted two workshops with another scheduled for the spring.
And I’m on the eve of fulfilling another dream: going south for three months during the northern winter.
So you might wonder how I even knew I was in the doldrums.
Number one, I came down with a very bad cold…I haven’t been really sick for at least ten years.
Number two I had planned a series of three lectures on the process of dream building which kept getting delayed, partly because I couldn’t talk two seconds without hacking away, and scheduling became a nightmare.
And three, I struggled with a deep dissatisfaction with some of my online activities. All desire to surf completely left me. I lost interest in creating and conducting advertising campaigns through safelists and mailers. And even now I have no clear picture of where to take Learn with Nick.
So why tell you all this?
I deeply believe in personal development. I deeply believe in a process of growth and expansion, and that sometimes the path forward is not always perfectly clear. That sometimes you need to sit back and just allow for a period of uncertainty, in fact you need to be willing to face those uncomfortable choices and times exactly because they birth transformation that won’t manifest if you try to resist or refuse the wings that will allow you to fly.
My purpose: To inspire people to rediscover their unlimited potential, has not changed. The vision of my dream is the same yet my understanding of what a dream is has altered significantly. And the goals I set as the stepping stones in the direction of my dream shifted. My understanding of how all three work together is transformed.
All to be shared in a series of up coming seminars.
Which brings me to announce a seminar “What is a PDG?” this Friday at 2PM eastern. You can register for the seminar by clicking this link: http://gowoa.me/i/sX4n